CHERIE COMMENT Step Backwards The Story

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August 27, 2019 by Grey Guy 1 Comment

In addition to all the issues raised up last two days, more ware to come. Seems Cherie became Mrs Broke, in addition to Mrs Broken. Seems her financial position became unstable, with an unemployment at the horizon. Debts for credit cards, outstanding loan, all from the good times prior Oak Man. A real disaster. Thousands of dollars.

“I am fucked up. And This is what I need you to understand… Call me a high class hooker or what ever you name it… I have a daughter to feed back home… I cant go home empty handed either…. And I dont know how long I will not have job and I have financial issues… I needed to survive”

Cherie started to collapse in my eyes, she became moody, angry, disappointed, guilty and she tried to push me away despite the reached hand towards her. I was helpless and hopeless. Couldn’t do anything, just watched her fighting with emotions and destiny.

With each day I started to see her fall down and her resignation. I did not understand why things are like that, why she was heading towards self destruction. That day, which I realized far later, she was escaping, backing off, exiting or running away from relation as an remedy for the issues. It was a sad day, but somehow fight for her must go on.

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Cherie December 30, 2019 at 14:40

“I am fucked up. And This is what I need you to understand… Call me a high class hooker or what ever you name it… I have a daughter to feed back home… I cant go home empty handed either…. And I dont know how long I will not have job and I have financial issues… I needed to survive”

I am really frustrated about what’s going on. I am torn between two lovers, bank chasing for loans, indecent offer, and the job resignation. My worries started to arise, but I have to hold on to Giuseppe’s promise of support, somehow I am bothered, What if he will dump me? He dumped me few times from the past, he can do it again.

On the other hand, Sir John was surprised when I sent him a message that I am resigning from my job. He knew from the start that the job is not related to my previous work experience, it’s not my interest at all. But I’m still thankful to him for helping me getting out from the situation with the Oak Man and offers me a job to start my life again.

Sir John was not happy about it, He started asking my reasons of leaving the company. He asked if I found job somewhere else, I said No. Then why you have to leave? I started to explained that the job is demotivating me, I am not productive at all day, sitting for 8 hours waiting for emails, office job is not really my thing. He asked about my plans, so I told him I want to go back to the former country I was with, I want to go back in retail. Working in retail from Sin City is not the same as working from the former country as there is a huge difference between the salary.
Though He was not happy about my decision, but somehow he offer me his help to support me with the visa, ticket and some cash for my trip. I felt relief after he accepted my resignation.

I am technically running away from everyone, But I can’t keep running. I have to face my issues, I have to get out of the situation. I can’t go home a failure, I can’t go home empty handed. I can’t go home as I have my mom and a daughter to support with. Somehow, the survival in the Sin City started.

I have to follow my mind, I need to be with Giuseppe, I need his support financially. Giuseppe needed my support as he has broken leg. I need to be with him, take care of him. He wanted to get back in the relation along with an engagement ring, He will propose. Me, somehow hope things will be alright. That’s the only thing I have to hold on to at this point, to HOPE.

Mr. Grey was still confused with what’s going on with me, I had been distant with him lately. I am sad, really sad. You know the feeling when you found someone whom you are happy with his presence, the laughter, the hours of talks, having him around Is just so light, positive and calm. But I need to push him away, Giuseppe will not be happy about this if he will finds out about Mr. Grey. Having him around will somehow create a chaos with my relation to Giuseppe. I need to remove Mr. Grey from my head. It’s hard, but I have to let go of him.