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“Give me a week to clear my mind”

September 6, 2019 by Grey Guy 1 Comment

She was silent all Friday. I had time to rethink it, I started to be fed up with her and her immature approach to this relation with her immature boyfriend around. At that point of our relation the bonding from my side wasn’t that strong yet, so I believed I could just let her go. Just before 5pm I dropped her a message saying Goodbye. She replied pretty quick initially defending herself, but then she said that Giuseppe went mad last night trying to find me in the city, traveling to the places we were with Cherie together. She also said that he became verbally abusive and once again manipulated her to feel the guilt of him traveling back with his lame leg. She also realized that while he was in Italy, he got some hint that Cherie started to date somebody, by sensing changes in her and by observing her Facebook page. After one hour or so, she finished the conversation saying “I want to see you next and be with you. I’m really sad…”.

After that she went silent for few hours and came back online after 10pm again. She once again talked about the guilt and being scary about being dumped again after he heals up. She somehow started to see the things in Giuseppe, I tried to explain to her during last few days. She started to sense that not all is right with that relation and that not all Giuseppe is saying, he aims to do.

All this made me more confused. Somehow, she indicated that she wants to walk away from him, but similarly to the steps she took two days ago by trying to return the ring she was not able to quit that relation. Same today, she wanted to walk, but couldn’t. Some kind of magnet kept her there. I tried so badly to get things to work, but she kept saying “Give me a week to clear my mind”. At the end of that night I gave up and just let her be with herself. My feelings where very mixed. All from love to resignation. Maybe I needed a break as well afterwards?

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Cherie January 8, 2020 at 23:07

After disappointing Mr. Grey that night as I went back to Giuseppe once again, I still didn’t have enough courage to let go of the relationship because of the guilty feeling inside me.

It was Friday, had to ran for my makeup class. I left Giuseppe sleeping, leaving him a note that I’ll be back around 12:30 pm. As soon as he wakes up he started sending messages and calling me. Unfortunately, I couldn’t reply any of his messages as we are in the middle of class discussion. He started to become upset, again, cursing me, telling me “fuck you” and “go marry your makeup, its more important than my broken foot” etc etc. I tried to make him calm by sending a selfie of me in the class, but it didn’t make any sense for him. “You are liar, I know you are with someone else. Stop playing with me.” I’m really fed up from his repetitive immature behavior.

I reached home and we’ve started to talk. He started asking about the man I met while he was in Italy. Of course I told him about Mr. Grey, I told him honestly that i was going out with him few times for dinner and went to club to watch live music. He insisted me to bring him to the club where I met Mr Grey, so I did. As soon as we reached to the club, there was no band schedule that night, the club was quite. he was again upset as he thought I am lying. I don’t know what I will do as he doesn’t believe any of what I said.

The Same night, he was upset not finding Mr. Grey on the club, we’ve decided to go to another famous club as well. I’m fed up dealing with him and decided to ignore him that night, that made him more upset.

On the other hand, I was communicating with Mr. Grey about what happened. I am totally distracted, I am not myself, and somehow Giuseppe notice this changes in me, the way I am talking to him, the silent treatment and ignoring a conversation with him, so he really thought there is someone bothering me. And he keep insisting I have someone else and I kept denying as well.

That night made him so upset, So he showed me his other self, he started to flirt with the woman next to our table. His showing off how capable he is to replace me in a matter of seconds. That woman somehow is responding to his flirting and I was so pissed off. I stood up, told him to move on her table and be with that woman and I walked out. I left, took a taxi home and As soon as He reached home, he broke up with me. “I cant stay with a woman like you, you don’t respect me”. How could you leave me alone there, you know that I cant still walk properly. let’s just stay as friends” without hesitation, I accepted his decision. “Okay, it’s better if we broke up, this is not going far anywhere, I’m tired as well”.

Again for the third time, he broke up with me. Already expected this will happen as he change his mind always. I slept crying but with the hope to see Mr. Grey next weekend, I need his comfort, with him, I found peace.