CHERIE COMMENT Step Backwards The Story

Return of the Shark

September 27, 2019 by Grey Guy 2 Comments

Just before I boarded the plane i got a text message from her at 6.30AM. She said that she lost the phone at the venue and she couldn’t find it. I asked why she couldn’t use the other phone, but she said she run out of credit as it was a prepaid one. I was confused, so I called her on the video call and she accepted it, probably incidentally. For a brief moment I could see her in the car on the passenger seat, but she disconnected herself. I was astonished. What did she do in somebodies car at 6AM? where is she going. I had the impression, Giuseppe is back and she is in his claws. She said she is on the way to another event, as she gonna be a muse for a basket ball team tournament starting this morning. I never heard about that event before and her attendance. I knew that the following day, when I get back to Sin City she will have an event related to Body Painting which she is going to attend. But muse for basket ball, this early morning? Never heard about it.

I flown my first sector of the journey and landed in transit to change the plane. Had few hours for rethinking. We had a video call and she started to talk. Obviously she lost her phone as some other participants. It looked as somebody accessed the locker room and stole the phones. She also confirmed that she run out of the credit on the prepaid and recharged it just this morning. All fine, but what about the another early event and the car? As i told you earlier I can sense Cherie’s small changes and I was right this time again. Giuseppe came around, after two weeks of silence and well being, he approached again. She told me hi attended the pageant event last night and started to talk to her, as she put it, he started to poison her brain again. She said that she went home to her place that night and she slept alone, as he dropped her home, but somehow she was in his car at 6.30AM. She tried to say that he dropped her after event and now he pocked up her again. I didn’t believe that, after all I was not able to know if the car headed from her or his apartment.

She added that actually a day or two earlier, when she went to her gay friends party, Giuseppe was invited there secretly without her consent. The gay was obviously trying to get Cherie and Giuseppe into conversation that night and Giuseppe was behind that idea. It seems, it worked, as the eventually met and talked. She said that she was pissed off by his attendance, but somehow she got involved in the conversation and later Giuseppe showed up at the pageant contest and the second event. She said she is still committed, but I was not sure. She admitted that since I left, she was not staying a single night in my hotel. That added to my doubts. I was scared and disappointed. Not first neither last time. I wrote some notes on the plane that day and landed safely.

After landing, I went to the hotel. Her belongings were still there, so she didn’t left, but it felt empty. I took shower, changed clothes and with my friend Peter and his girlfriend we went for the body painting event nearby to face Giuseppe, as he supposed to be there as well. I knew him only from the pictures, but would be more than happy to meet him that night. To my disappointment, he never showed up, coward. I found Cherie around and she was different. Not the same person from the day I left Sin City five days ago. Only five days, and see how much happened. She was into the event and we couldn’t talk freely. I send her my texts from day zero and day seventeen and she had tears in her eyes while reading it. I even took a picture of her at that time. I met few of her friends and we had some brief chat. As time got late and the event was finishing, we went back to hotel and went sleep, together in one bee, but far apart.

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Grey Guy December 10, 2019 at 11:13

Day Seventeen

Awake from the short sleep, getting ready for early morning or rather late night drive to the airport, he wakes with the same feeling he had in the bad times of days before day zero. any time before the same feeling or maybe an intuition whispers to him that things are not good. the text messages sent to here previous night are not delivered, her phone remains off, the other phone was active just an hour ago. no single message in return, nothing. he knows, he been through that before, the state where silence means, bad things are happening. slowly the panic arises, the feeling of the demons approaching and sharks circling around. this is bad. still he tries to find an rational answer, but he knows that each time the feeling was there before things went wrong. after all she has been alone for last five days, without him to protect her to keep her strong, to keep her assertive. she comes alive few hours later when the day starts and sun rises, when he reaches the airport. the way she texts, the way she answers is not the same as from the days before. there is a change. is he just imagining the change? not sure, but the strong feeling of things not being right is there.

few hours on the plane, a transit, a cup of tea and the call. they start to talk. she doesn’t sound happy, there is no glow in her face as it was there before in the days following day zero. there she is, changed. all starts to add up. there are secrets. they are coming up to surface, once again. she talks about returning demons and sharks starting to byte, sharks circling around trying to poison her brain again. she is still fragile, the glue keeping them together, will it hold, will it resist? no, idea. he is devastated, somehow unable to understand. she is saying that the glue is keeping them together, he is not sure, lot of doubts in the air. emotional stress arises, after few weeks of progress step back? how to fight it? shall he give up? is he ready for the everlasting fight again and again. why is she soft, why is she not resisting the sharks. an emotional roller caster was introduced to him. he regrets, that he has to leave her alone for five days, he is crying. it’s hard to to cry in public space, at the airport where paths of thousands of people cross each day. he has bad vibes, he knows that things are not good. it passes several hours before he meets her or maybe not. after all just half of the day passed. the sharks gonna be around sensing the fragile fish, her being sensitive and the glue not strong enough. he have to make decisions, live can not be a fight for the other person day after day, it has to be a way upwards into happiness, not downwards to hell. lot of things crosses his mind. shall he walk away, shall he fight, shall he withdraw and let the world rule it.

while the plane is descending into final destination, he is afraid it could be actually the final destination, an end, an miserable end of relationship, a fragile relationship. he asks himself, how much can he take, how much can he fight for her? maybe it’s time to let it go? after all, it cannot be like this every time he leaves her for few days. he can not be in the stress situation each time worrying what is happening or what would happen. everybody has limitations, everybody can handle just enough. is he too good? too soft? there are no answers, only the bad feeling, while the sun fails down and the darkness surrounds the airplane approaching the airport. hours of uncertainty in front of him. sharks looking for blood, demons around. and she? where is she in this story of day seventeen? maybe he will be able to add that into the days history if the relationship lasts past day seventeen, maybe not. time will show, hope is there, question is if she can resist the sharks, clean her mind and be persistent in her commitment. time will tell. he just landed.
Cherie February 7, 2020 at 15:19

I woke up early, had my shower. Before Giuseppe arrive to apartment, I rushed to the shop to buy credit for my phone, then activated the data to use the Internet.
Immediately send a message to Mr. Grey about what happen last night. I lost my phone and ran our of credit.

He called me on the video, got connected but had to cut the call right away as Giuseppe doesn’t know that I’m with someone.

“Who was that?”
⁃ A friend.
Who’s friend?
⁃ Someone you don’t know.

I can see Giuseppe’s face somehow change. From being excited to confused. He still doing his effort to win me back, he can’t show me his aggressiveness or being mad, he calm himself like he don’t care who was that guy on the call earlier.

At the same time, I am worried. Mr. Grey saw me on someone’s car. I am sure that he recognises the car. I tried to remain calm like nothing happened.

We arrive in the venue, I started do my makeup. People started coming. Event will start soon. Giuseppe is trying to blend in with the people around. I know he is not comfortable as he is the only foreigner in there, but as he wanted to win me, he showed his support until the event ends.

We dropped me home, and I told him that I have another event in the evening, “the body painting”. Before we said goodbye he said.

“Cherie, I hope you understand my intention. I wanted you back, I want to be with you, to support you with any things you like to do. Please accept my sincere apology for what I have done. Im sorry. I want us to start a new one. I’m not in hurry, I will wait until you are ready, But I will be supporting you from now on, I want to see your world and your people. I will come for the body painting event later.
⁃ Okay, We’ll see. I will let you know what time I will go the venue”. And we said goodbye.

I become restless, worried. With my guilt inside, I can’t keep doing this anymore. This is wrong. Immediately called Mr. Grey on video call. And we started to talk, I told him about Giuseppe presence since day 1 when he’s gone. I couldn’t lie more so I told him about that Gay friend who set us up for meeting during the dinner, the birthday party, the pageant and the basketball event in the morning, and later he will come to the body painting. I saw Mr. Grey disappointments with me, but I still choose to tell him the truth about what’s happening the last few days.
He is sad, I can see it from his eyes. Though he was disappointed, still he wanted to protect me from Giuseppe so he will come to the venue of the paiting once he landed.

After my conversation with Mr. Grey, I called Giuseppe, I told him to meet me in the parking in front of the Hotel. The intention is to tell him the truth about Mr. Grey. I intentionally park the car he took for me next to the car Mr. Grey provided me. Somehow my stuffs are still inside the car, proof that I’m the one using that car.
Giuseppe came with his sports car, while I was inside the car waiting for him.

“Hello, Giuseppe. I called you because I have to tell you something”.
I’m sorry that I couldn’t tell you that I am now with someone else.
That guy who called earlier is my new boyfriend. And he will arrived tonight from Europe. I am living with him in this hotel. That car next to us, he provided it to me.
⁃ No, are you kidding me? Com’on Cherie please tell me this is a Joke.
⁃ Why are you doing this to me? I just signed the contract of the apartment for 1 year, How I will stay in that apartment without you. Com’on you choose that apartment for us, That’s our home. You don’t deserve to live in the hotel, this is a whore place. How could you accept him to put you in this hotel with full of bitches, You are not a bitch. You are not belong here!
⁃ What will I do with the car? I paid already the rent for 1 month. I can’t return it. You have to use it. Please use it.

Giuseppe, I didn’t asked you to get me a car, I didn’t asked you to take that apartment for us. I didn’t wanted your ring back. Please take it back. I’m sorry if I didn’t tell you about him when we had our dinner few days back. I kept my relationship private as I don’t want you to interfere with my life.

⁃ Who is he, was he the guy you’ve dated while I was in Italy?
⁃ From where he is? What is his Job?

Yes, He was the guy I’ve dated the time you dumped me. He is from Europe and he is a pilot.

⁃ What? A pilot, do you really have an idea what a pilots are?
⁃ They have a woman everywhere, they will not settle for one woman, they will always have a woman to fuck every place they go. Don’t be part of his collection.
⁃ Com’on, he puts you in this hotel just to fuck you. To be his doll. He kept you there for sex only. Open your mind Cherie.
⁃ You will have a better life with me, I will marry you and be Cristina’s father. We will have a better family.

From the way Giuseppe describes about being a pilot, I conclude He was right. Mr. Grey have his Banana back home and still in relationship with her. And now, He is here in Sin City with me. I have already the thoughts of me being a temporary partner plus Giuseppe added this information in my head made a more clear picture in my head. I felt devastated even more.

“Somehow, you have point Giuseppe, He has a woman back home! Thank you for this information, however that doesn’t convince me to go back to you, I rather want to be alone than being stress. All Men are liars, and fucking selfish. I get used to it. I always being dump anyway, so this is not something new. I will get over this in time. Please take your ring and car, I don’t need them and Thank you for coming.
– No Cherie, keep it with you. You need the car, It’s okay if you don’t want to move with me in our apartment, but you have an option to go back to your old place. I will help you pay for your rent don’t worry about it, Leave this whore place, You are not belong here. Please listen to me. I love you, I will make your life better than this. Please think about it. Don’t allow him to use you for sex, you are not a doll.

I started to have a chest pain, and difficulty of breathing trying to digest the information he told me. I couldn’t absorb the information and our conversation, I felt really bad, uncomfortable, confused, and devastated. I ask him to stop talking and just leave. I needed to be alone, and so He left.

I went back to the hotel with a heavy heart. Again, I am in between of two men who’s fighting over me.
If only Mr. Grey told me about his Banana from the beginning, things will be different.
If only I didn’t know about Banana and his relationship with her, I will not be sad like this.
If only I didn’t know about Banana, I could give him my loyalty and full commitment.
If only I didn’t know, I wouldn’t give Giuseppe a chance to come near me.
If only I didn’t allow Giuseppe to talk to me, he wouldn’t have the chance to share this information that now bothers me.

I was betrayed of the truth, I was betrayed of the Man whom I thought different from the rest. The withdrawal of my feelings started after knowing banana. Now, after hearing all this information from Giuseppe, I don’t see a reason to keep going with the relationship.

I trusted that this relationship with Mr. Grey is different, I trusted his intention was real and genuine. I trusted that building a family with him is possible. The trust is now broken!

Could it be fix? I don’t know! I can forgive but I don’t forget. This informations and thoughts I had in my head will swallow me, will destroy me, will chase me even in my dreams. This will hunt me every day, and I don’t know if Im strong enough to fight my thoughts.