CHERIE COMMENT Step Backwards The Story

A failure

August 28, 2019 by Grey Guy 1 Comment

That Wednesday evening we met at a restaurant in the mall. We ordered some steaks and at some point she started to explain. As more she talked, the more confused I was. As more she talked, I started to loose hope. In an basically uninterrupted monologue she told me the story of Giuseppe. This was the first time his name popped up, the name of character that shaped and influenced our life for next few months.

On the day we met, August 15th, she said she was dumped by Giuseppe after having month long relation. She was somehow into that relation, which obviously had its own up and downs, but at that particular day, she was dumped by him in a ridiculous text message exchange. In a (un)passionate way Giuseppe let her go. So still with one foot in the door frame, the beautiful lady I met that evening on the street, was theoretically free, not taken any more. As Cherie admitted, she was just dumped and had no issue to talk with a stranger that day. However during those two weeks we started to meet, she got back to him via back channels. In his faith Giuseppe broke his leg, while visiting Italy and was very anxious to get back to the city, to ask for forgiveness and to propose to her. To my astonishment, I couldn’t believe that a guy knowing a woman for a month is going to propose and bring an engagement ring! I tried to explain it to her, that this is not a fairy tale, but a flesh and bone life, and nobody brings nowadays rings after knowing somebody for few weeks and dumping her there between. She didn’t listen.

“He needed me now… he has broken leg…And I already promise I will be around till he will be healed completely. ???
I am cancer and this is already my nature… to be there when someone needed me even though I know people around is taking advantage of me.
I dont even know how serious he was with his proposal.. or maybe he just told me that to keep me for a while bcoz he is injured ?”

In his words he insisted to came back with a broken leg and i her guilt she accepted to take care of him. She said that she made a promise and in her culture she has to keep that promise. I tried to divert her from that idea, telling her, that Giuseppe is only playing her for his own agenda and blurry vision of the relation. She didn’t listen.

I asked about myself, why those two weeks we met had no influence on her life, she said “My mind choose Giuseppe, my heart choose you. But i follow my mind”

With those words we separated. i went back to my own Alamo in the hotel and send her a picture of my face in tears. Tears were there all the night and following days. My hope for a relation with an extraordinary woman failed in a classic way. There is always somebody else. That evening we exchnage some more message with my conclusion, as a dedicated message to her “Follow the Heart, Mind will follow the Heart and I take care of both”

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Cherie December 30, 2019 at 15:24

Finally, I handed over my resignation to the HR. I am not even sure if I am doing the right thing. Sir John was on vacation so there’s no way he can stop me from my resignation. I know for sure if he is here, he will try to convince me to stay, but then I took the chance of leaving the company while he is not around.

As I am getting back in relation with Giuseppe, I have to get out of the situation at work. I can’t longer stay in the company with a “request of service” from my boss when he needs it. Soon I will be committed with Giuseppe, I have to be clean for our relationship, I have to!

I was having conversation with Giuseppe upon his arrival tomorrow evening. He seems excited, the plans where to meet and where to have our dinner. Seems perfect as I felt happy about it as well. I never thought of being engaged after few failures from relationship I had, But I deserve to be happy, and maybe the relationship with Giuseppe might be different from the previous ones.

I made up my mind to finally close the chapter with Mr. Grey, I can’t be distracted by him while I’m in relationship with Giuseppe. So We met later afternoon, went for dinner at steak house and then from there I started to talk about Giuseppe, the proposal, and the engagement ring. I never mention to Mr. Grey about him during the last 2 weeks, but now I have to. He needs to know the truth, he has to move on, he needs to let go, I can’t commit a relationship with him.

By telling him all these, he was surprised, he didn’t have idea about Giuseppe but still his persuasive personality didn’t stop there. He told me to write on a piece of paper the positive and negative traits of Giuseppe. If more on the positive traits than go on with Giuseppe, if more on the negative then I have to rethink. As I wrote down the positive and negative, it turns out to be 50/50. From that moment, looking at Mr. Grey sad, I felt sad as well. It was tough and heavy decision. But then again, I have to follow my mind, I am fighting to survive a living, with no job, I have to hold on to Giuseppe. So I dumped Mr. Grey that night with a heavy heart.

On our own way home, we both felt sad about the earlier conversation. A tough decision, but both must move on. While he was heading to his Hotel entrance, I was still on the parking looking at him with a heavy heart. I wasn’t happy looking at his sad face. He told me to leave and drive, but I can’t go, I wanted to give him a hug, I wanted to comfort him, I can’t see him that sad. I am really sad, something was not right. Why I am feeling this way?

As I reached home, He sent me a photo of his eyes with a tears on them, really sad. It’s killing me even more. Somehow, a flash back to my memory. I was asking from GOD a sign, the person who will cry for me will be my Mr. Right, looking at his photo, I burst myself to cry. He was the one I was waiting for, The one I prayed for, He was sent from God to me. I can’t let go of him.