Femmé Fatale
On Thursday I tried to uphold the conversation with her, but the message flow from her was very sparse. I badly wanted her go back to me and to continue the creation of the relationship. No, nix, nada. Not that weekend.
On Monday, after the miserable weekend, just prior to my dinner I got a simple text message: ?
I was pretty surprised, but on the other hand I had a faith that she will return at some point sooner or later. It seems, it happened sooner then I thought. After few text exchanges, I called her and we talked for like half an hour. She wasn’t happy, not happy at all. She said that she is chocking with the relation and Giuseppe is so possessive. The other night he got drunk in his favorite night club and started to behave like an ass. As Cherie by that time were still living in her small apartment, she run away from him back there. Obviously, she got the ring from him, but was not that happy about it. In general she started to have doubts and second thoughts about him, but still in her commitment she had to stay until he heals up. Not wise decision, but nothing to do about it. Her future was in her hands and with compromising she could get the relation with Giuseppe to work in long run. From that day I I changed her description in my iPhone to Femmé Fatale.
It was Thursday, My last working day at work. Finally, I handed over my responsibility to my colleague and giving my farewell to them.
I sent message to Sir John, thanking him for the opportunity he has given me to work in his company. He was also confused of my rush decision of living the company without having a job replacement. He promise that he will still be supportive with me if I needed his help and will continue support with expenses on my makeup class. He was the one actually pushes me to find my passion, and was very supportive since the beginning. I still remember he said “Find your passion back in your life Cherie, make it happen and work for it. I will be here to support you always”.
I was in a short time relationship with my Boss, somehow he dropped me after a month with him as he said
“Cherie I have to explain that my head is mess because I realise i am still in love with my ex and finding it difficult to move on, I need to break from us and try to get my head fixed. I am sorry, i hope You can understand that i am not in good place at the moment and its damaging our relationship.”
I had to move out somehow as I was being used for service when my boss need it. No commitment, No attachment, and I cant go on with that kind of set up anymore As Giuseppe was about to propose, I had to run away from Sir John as this will cause chaos in my relationship with Giuseppe in the future.
On the other hand, Giuseppe arrived in Sin City. We decided to have our Dinner in an Italian restaurant. He picked me up from my building and we headed to the restaurant.
While having our dinner, we talked a lot of things, the mistakes of dumping the relationship, and now, talking about the plans to move in a new apartment and will live together as a couple. As he handed me over the engagement ring, He keeps telling me that he shouldn’t travel with his condition as doctor didn’t allow him but he insisted because he wants to be with me. Now I felt guilty, Looking at him in his condition while using his walking stick, he shouldn’t travel, he should be resting, he should be healing but he traveled for me and I really appreciate his effort for doing so. Now, my responsibility is to take care of him until he will be completely heal. As I received his ring, I promise to be stay with him, take care of him and love him. It was a good night indeed, first night with Giuseppe being his fiancée.
The next day, Friday, I had to run to my makeup class. I left Giuseppe at home. I was in my class and he was calling me like 10x. I couldn’t answer his call as the discussion in the class was on going. Received a lot of messages from him telling me That I didn’t keep my promise, I left him home and that my makeup class is more important than him. He became paranoid and started accusing me of meeting someone else and Im using my makeup class as excuse. I was shocked with his messages, he was very abusive and possessive. I sent him a selfie of me inside the class, and he become calm at some point, but the rest of the weekend with him was really frustrating. I can’t stand his attitude and immature behavior, I am choke with the relationship and I become even more stress. Having No job, will soon visa will be cancelled, With unsettle debts, and now the stress I am getting from him. He was stress at his work, and he is spreading this stress and negativity on me, makes the relationship becomes toxic, and I didn’t like it. I then started to compare the time when I was with Mr. Grey, the time we spent together, the talks, the laughter, the fun. I miss him, Wondering how he has been after I dumped him, is he okay? Well, I hope he is doing fine.