{"id":9006,"date":"2019-12-02T23:59:20","date_gmt":"2019-12-02T21:59:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.aboutcherie.com\/?p=9006"},"modified":"2020-02-23T20:08:33","modified_gmt":"2020-02-23T18:08:33","slug":"am-i-being-used","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.aboutcherie.com\/?p=9006","title":{"rendered":"Am I being used?"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<span class=\"su-dropcap su-dropcap-style-simple\" style=\"font-size:2.5em\">S<\/span>till nice weather around, not to windy, but evenings started to be cold. Same in our relation. Fight after fight and no prediction for better. After another argument I started to see the exit path Cherie created. Maybe I had time to review all of this, maybe I waken up and started to see things. She was talking about changing the dates of travel back home, but somehow the ticket couldn\u2019t be altered due to flight tariff. So despite her request to fly earlier and came back later, I couldn\u2019t do much. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"su-pullquote su-pullquote-align-left\">\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\"><figure class=\"aligncenter size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"396\" height=\"1024\" src=\"https:\/\/www.aboutcherie.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/02\/Screenshot-2020-02-23-at-17.19.01-396x1024.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-9007\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.aboutcherie.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/02\/Screenshot-2020-02-23-at-17.19.01-396x1024.png 396w, https:\/\/www.aboutcherie.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/02\/Screenshot-2020-02-23-at-17.19.01-116x300.png 116w, https:\/\/www.aboutcherie.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/02\/Screenshot-2020-02-23-at-17.19.01.png 586w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 396px) 100vw, 396px\" \/><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>My considerations started to rise up, by reading the history of our text\nexchange and analyzing her behavior. All begun to show a clear picture of Cherie\nwanting to walk out from the relation. I have seen clearly, that since some\ntime she started to create obstacles, had lot of vague arguments towards me,\nlike being cold, not hugging her, not talking to her, not being supportive. All\nthe small issues she spinned up and she tried to feed me back with it, but magnified\nto extensive level. There were those arguments, but none of them actually made\nme the bad guy, I was faithful, I worked her issues, I supported her living and\ntried to create a family and harmony under one roof. All in vain, as she\nactually was looking for an exit. She admitted it some time later, but at that\npoint my intuition started to build the picture.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I told her <em>\u201cCherie, I feel being used\u201d<\/em>.\nShe got mad. Really mad. Not sure, if for the reason I detected the truth or\nshe was mad cause she didn\u2019t fill to be using me. I gently explained her, how do\nI see the facts and how all builds a picture of her trying to exit the relation\nfor unknown reason. Remember, still not aware of Giuseppe being around. She\nsaid, that saying, that she is using me is a big word and she under no\ncircumstances wanted to use me. I said, that somehow after I paid her loan, she\nstarted to lose interest with me. Straight after that weekend, when I allegedly\nbecame cold and pissed of her she begun to be cold as well. She started to show\nmore interest for the contest, then me. She said, it\u2019s not true and she would never,\never use me as this is not part of her culture and she still loves me and she\nwould not be able to take advantage over me. I wasn\u2019t sure, but the feeling was\nthere and facts talked for themselves. Vast part of November she was cooling\nour relation and I have seen her to be unhappy or rather eager to change her\nlife, meaning exiting the present one.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>She was chewing on it, she was. She shaked her head and few times, how\ncould I accuse her of taking advantage of me. I had doubt\u2019s, but what\u2019s said it\nsaid. You cannot unsay it. Later that afternoon we went to see an office we\nwere looking for to move in from January. The place was nice and I took a picture\nof Cherie seating at the windows facing the bay. A lone girl at the windows. I\nsent her the picture. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>till nice weather around, not to windy, but evenings started to be cold. Same in our relation. Fight after fight and no prediction for better. After another argument I started to see the exit path Cherie created. Maybe I had time to review all of this, maybe I waken up and started to see things. She was talking about changing the dates of travel back home, but somehow the ticket couldn\u2019t be altered due to flight tariff. So despite her request to fly earlier and came back later, I couldn\u2019t do much. My considerations started to rise up, by reading the history of our text exchange and analyzing her behavior. All begun to show a clear picture of Cherie wanting to walk out from the relation. I have seen clearly, that since some time she started to create obstacles, had lot of vague arguments towards me, like being cold, not hugging her, not talking to her, not being supportive. All the small issues she spinned up and she tried to feed me back with it, but magnified to extensive level. There were those arguments, but none of them actually made me the bad guy, I was faithful, I worked her issues, I supported her living and tried to create a family and harmony under one roof. All in vain, as she actually was looking for an exit. She admitted it some time later, but at that point my intuition started to build the picture. I told her \u201cCherie, I feel being used\u201d. She got mad. Really mad. Not sure, if for the reason I detected the truth or she was mad cause she didn\u2019t fill to be using me. I gently explained her, how do I see the facts and how all builds a picture of her trying to exit the relation for unknown reason. Remember, still not aware of Giuseppe being around. She said, that saying, that she is using me is a big word and she under no circumstances wanted to use me. I said, that somehow after I paid her loan, she started to lose interest with me. Straight after that weekend, when I allegedly became cold and pissed of her she begun to be cold as well. She started to show more interest for the contest, then me. She said, it\u2019s not true and she would never, ever use me as this is not part of her culture and she still loves me and she would not be able to take advantage over me. I wasn\u2019t sure, but the feeling was there and facts talked for themselves. Vast part of November she was cooling our relation and I have seen her to be unhappy or rather eager to change her life, meaning exiting the present one. She was chewing on it, she was. She shaked her head and few times, how could I accuse her of taking advantage of me. I had doubt\u2019s, but what\u2019s said it said. You cannot unsay it. Later that afternoon we went to see an office we were looking for to move in from January. The place was nice and I took a picture of Cherie seating at the windows facing the bay. A lone girl at the windows. I sent her the picture.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[92,2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-9006","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-downmood","category-blog"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.aboutcherie.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9006","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.aboutcherie.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.aboutcherie.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.aboutcherie.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.aboutcherie.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=9006"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.aboutcherie.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9006\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":9016,"href":"https:\/\/www.aboutcherie.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9006\/revisions\/9016"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.aboutcherie.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=9006"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.aboutcherie.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=9006"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.aboutcherie.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=9006"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}